Wow...Easter has come and gone!
It was a busy time, and it finally hit me I think yesterday. I would try and do something, get ready to go on a visitation and have to sit back down. I contemplated taking a shower, but felt like I would just slip down the drain if I did. I was really wiped out.

Today I am back to normal, but now have to really work to catch up. Sunday is coming and my sermon for this week is NO WHERE near completion. I had to attend a meeting today that pretty much took up the day, this was after going to the hospital early this morning to see my neighbor who was having a cardiac cath, and then returning to Longview to pick her up when she was discharged. She has no family here that can pick her up, so I told her to call me.

Once I got home and settled in, I began to look at the scripture lessons for this week. I decided on the Gospel, and have picked out my sermon title, which is unusual. I do not normally get the title until the sermon is done. However, this time it jumped out at me. "Not Until..." The scripture is from John and is Thomas' encounter with Christ after the resurrection. So now I am working on the sermon. Hopefully I will have it finished tomorrow.

I do have to go into town in the morning...to the court. A young woman is up for revocation of her probation. I feel like I need to be in the courtroom for her. This has been a difficult situation for me. There is a lot of dysfunctionality in the family and I am really having to work at setting boundaries with this woman; and that is hard. My nature is a "fixer". I know I can't do that in this situation. It is beyond anything that I can fix. I am also having to deal with my feelings about her lying. I haven't yet confronted her on it because I am afraid of loosing control and really getting angry with her, which wouldn't be good.

I am afraid she may end up going to prison (again) and then I will have to figure out how to deal with her there. She is a very angry young woman, blaming everyone else for her misfortunes, not taking responsibility for her actions and I just really get frustrated with that.

Well, I think I am going to call it a night. Hopefully now that I am feeling better and not so pushed, I will be able to add more frequent posts.